Silent Angel

Silent angel, cries inside
Tears no soul can hear
In her mind, the world is fair
In her reality, it has stripped her bare
Her soul for the taking, no longer alive
Dead inside, she walks in the night
Fears and foes, all grow dim
No more, no more for this heart of tin

Silent angel, with demons to fight
Ignoring the pain, the torture within
The ones she thought she knew
Were lies sent to mislead her shattered heart
Bleeding palms and tear sodden cheeks
Losing the fight to the dark
To the silence of the night
The solace of the cold embrace of nothing

Lighting tears the sky, her soul sears
There are no longer lies, only hidden truths
Rain slicing her skin, wings tattered and torn
This silent angel fights no more
The night her cloak, her way set
Heading to the edge, the edge of the abyss
Wings spread wide, toes overstepping the boundary
Silent angel, free fall to solace, hurt and pain no more.

LIve my life...

Falling back into the dark, pain the only reminder of life


Fail the aching heart; I would know the beat is gone.

The nights are mine alone again, hurting, seeking the truth.

Truth, love, lies, broken promises and shattered dreams.

Surrender and retreat call my name as once again I hide.

Back behind my walls where I was once safe

Crawling, near death, to the place that was my sacred sanctum

Go now, take back with you the memories that will feed the pain

Take the sweet words that once made me believe

Take the gentle kisses and morning love, take it all and go

I need to heal, need to fight for life again

Need to find me, fight this pain

Live my life

The Edge Of The Night

This lonely heart of mine was dead, wrapped in darkness.

Lost in my dreams, I traveled till I reached the edge, the edge of the night

Finding light was not a concern, solace in the shadows.

Life would not leave me there, on the edge, the edge of the night

The light came in the form of love, love from afar

I have been saved from the edge, the edge of the night

Warm heart, warm hands holding me close


No more fear, no more need to run from the edge, the edge of the night


Running to you is all I need to do when things seem too heavy


Your love makes my soul weightless away from the edge, the edge of the night


The days are few, the nights are less till we are together

That day we will stand together on the edge, the edge of the night.

Dirty Angel

Dirty angel, wings soiled with sin
Wings too weighted to fly
Heart too heavy to care
No more fight
No more life
Death and shadows reign in the nights of silence
Screams piercing the midnight skies as the dirty angel watches others fly


Dirty angel, bleeding from within

Running scared
Soul ripped and torn
Clambering for the door
Never finding escape
Death and shadows reign in the nights of silence
Screams piercing the midnight skies as the dirty angel watches others fly


Dirty angel, fearful to the core

Scurrying forever
Forever more
Light and love a distant memory
Dark ever present
Death and shadows reign in the nights of silence
Screams piercing the midnight skies as the dirty angel watches others fly



In the still, cold dark I lie in wait.

Waiting for the end.
Waiting for a solace from this fight.
I cannot hide the cuts, the bruises, the signs of our struggle.
You are the scars that mark my soul.
Marks and scars I bear for you, visible in the night.
Battle scars a painful reminder of the death of faith.
My soul stripped to its barest minimum.
Lover lost, enemy gained.
Anger wells as tears roll down my cheeks.
Enough was never enough for you.
Stripped of my faith in the light, I cry out.
I can no longer forgive your transgressions.
Weakness now my only companion.
Nights and days of turmoil, eating me alive.
Forever hating the silence.
Marks and scars I bear for you, visible in the night.
Battle scars a painful reminder of the death of faith.
Tears roll as fear drowns out the silence.
Fighting the screams of the past no more.
Faith lost, I search for the end.
This sweet sacrifice is mine as I walk to the edge.
A soul wrenched apart by mistrust in you.
Wind whipped and hell torn.
An empty void within my soul, life no longer.
Scarred by your absence.
Marks and scars I bear for you, visible in the night.
Battle scars a painful reminder of the death of faith.

Running

memories grabbing at the flesh of my soul
tearing me apart
ripping old wounds
never hidden
never healed
darkness creeping in amongst silent screams
running
falling
dragged into the abyss
fear and familiarity wrapping me in cold
no more fighting
surrender the option
giving up
letting go
running
falling
weaker than before
salvation a lie
your face swarms my mind
my heart
my soul

freedom in release

soul in chains

running

falling

dragged into the abyss

sweet sacrifice of life

darkness embraced

running

falling

dragged into the abyss

Life, as we know it.

Life, as we know it. .
Maybe in the end, its not what we thought.
Maybe when we look back, we will say that we should have known.
Different. Now there is a concept. I doubt it's existence. No one is as different as they think they are. No matter how hard they try and prove their theory, all they do is prove mine.
Don't tell me you know what I'm going through. You don't. Simple.
Don't call yourself a friend when all u do is seek your own gain.
Genuine does not even exist in this life, as we know it.
Honesty, trust and worth, what are these? Concepts to candy coat.
Inside is irrelevant and outside gives value.
Don't even get me started on love. 
Relationships are sadly not what we dream of and what we hope for. 
The norm today is pain, anguish, distrust and disillusionment.
Failure was never an option, now it is a given.
Life, as we know it, is purely an illusion.